&the greying vision

Saturday, October 22, 2005 7:44 PM

finally i've bother to blog tis stupid blog lers!! hahas!! its more den one month i've came here!!

lots of things happened to mi during this period! really lots!! maybe these changes can make a drastic change in my whole life.! some things not much ppl knew bout it.. onli my closest fren knew.. some things not even the closest ppl know of it..

recently juz realise even if u treat the person how good? maybe there'll be one day they will bound to betray or backstab u.. i've gone thru too many of it which made my heart alreadi used to all this stuff! the story goes like tis! *shall not disclose thing about them! if not history will repeat again.. which i wun let it happen!*

they never treat mi truely.. maybe in face they are showing how good or how concern they are for u.. but NEVER! its all juz lies!! its been month they've been treating mi like tis and im like an idiot treating them as good.. but once the muatual trust have been broken! its all gone! GONE FOREVER! never am i gonna trust them any more! i realise they're also veri fake.. even to their frens.. i juz cant understand y they jus being so *dunno how to say!* cant they juz treat frens seriously?

deep in thots i think im still not untill the perfect stage tht can comment on other ppl attitude.. but one thing i noe i treat fren better den how they treat their friends. even their closest! thou i used to lose my *used to be* good frens becos of my bad attitude wat they say hypocrite.. but i've learnt my lesson.. wholeheartedly!! now i realise some thing which really change my point of view of my life.! making new friends is impt thou.. but old frens is as impt.. now im really enjoying the life im having now.. thou problems still arises.. in life, problems always stay.. but its how u view.. if its negative or positive.. life still goes on.. so why make life so miserable?

maybe or maybe not.? now im enlighten.. life's happie for mi now.. its all for my good to lead such a happie life now..

things are getting more and more for mi.. maybe there's a dream, a big big dream tht lil ppl would tot of it, awaiting for mi to realise it.. thing is lies on my parent. she has a big objection on the job.. its a dream i've tot of it since young.. i used to think tht it's far away.. but now the chance is coming knock on my door of opportunity.. im thinking if i should give it a try for it.. should i give up w/o giving it a try.. or try it.? obstacle is my parent? can i? *no confident*

thts my life.. i wanna have a new life! a brand new life.!

to those taking o's this year!! jiayous worhs!! its always worth trying!! no harm?! =)

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